This journey to loving myself, loving God and loving others is simultaneously liberating, tiring, joyful and revealing. As I leave this retreat and meet with other people, the more I see how God loves me, the more freedom I know, the more desire to just connect with other people.

Yet it is at the same time that this feeling of my initiation and the sense of undeveloped family makes my heart so tired. It feels like an upward struggle.

I won't oust the possibility that I am sensitive. But it's just so hard...shouldn't the family of God welcome you? I know each person is struggling with their own. I don't blame them, I understand. But I just feel tired...

Lord, give me the strength to persevere and to really see myself as You see me.