I vacillate a lot between utmost despair to peaks of euphoria and that yo-yo ing is becoming less extreme. But still there are parts inside me that I know need attention. Places where I look and think, "God, this is so ugly. You're bringing this to the surface...how do I deal...

I'm walking through that valley right now. Being honest with myself, being brave enough to face myself was the hardest yet past time. Increasing light in me continues to cause the darkness to retreat and tremble. It also reveals vermin that need to be dealt with. Jealousy, relationship issues, rebelliousness. They're not good things, but I'm glad they're being sieved out.

And I am encouraged by these verses:

2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

Galations 2:20
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body is lived by faith in the Son of God who loved me and gave himself for me.

It's a late night for me, kids. But it was a good one, and nice place to start reflecting in lieu of the upcoming weekend.

It'll be interesting to see the aftermath.