Random Pre-INS Thoughts

I've arrived. In New Zealand, Auckland. Just one ferry ride away from the ultimate destination - Orama, Great Barrier Island.

Now awaiting the ferry that will "bring me home", I don't know what to expect.

Apprehensive and anxious, I feel like I'm preoccupied with those thoughts.

Deep breathe and calm. That's what I need. If I could inhale the serene blue of the sky and feel it fill me up. I feel like that's what it must feel and how you can describe to a child what it's like to have God's peace beyond understanding.

I want so much. Yet I want without discerning or specifying. Hmm.

I feel all this pent up business inside of me. I need it somehow to vacate. I need to release it. I need to be free.

To want and know not where to begin...

Questions questions questions

Will I survive the cold?

Will I make friends?

Will I fit in?

Am I ready for what God has in store?

Will I meet someone?

Thoughts thoughts thoughts

I'm freezing

I should have brought more spaghetti straps

I miss home

Is this too crazy?? Am I doing the right thing?

Will I be able to write like I thought?


Arrggggghhhhhhh.